+5:35 AM]*
Slacked around, until Li Xin decided to go, den wasted a little time here, a little time dere...HeHs finally left the house at 5+(?) DeN WeNT tO ParKWaY AftEr SenDinG HeR tO ThE MRT StaTioN...
Wanted to eat at pizza hut...Ended up in bk...MEt Tangie, mei n botak...Went to arcade first...Met up with Tangie after she bought her stuff...
Came home to recieve depressing news..But since i promised not to sae it, i wun...Got realli pissed at myself...
PpL playing mahjong downstairs...Went to play mahjong awhile...Felt a little better...
Came upstairs to play gunbound..Saw Selene online.. =) Intro : Selene, gunbounder...aka Saihara...She consoled me as we played...Thnx alot girl...U always cheer me up...But she gotta go early...Dun blame her...LovE you...Hope u do well for SATs yea...
SIghs...
Cassey...Enough...Been hurt too many times...Scars will heal over time, but dun wanna let myself get injured in this healing process...I hope you're happy...I'll not be going after you anymore...I've openly declared dat I'll be with Selene...The next time you're heart broken or you're feeling down, I might not be there any more...Even if I am, I can't guarantee that I wun be laughing at you for being silly instead of consoling you as i usually would...You've played with my feelings for too long, too many times...If I Thought suicide was the onli way out, I'd probably have died so many times...Remember I've asked if you would be happier if i started dating another girL?Well, I think you are, I'm off your back now...At least i know after a while, I'll be happier...Seeing that you never wanted to improve our relationship, no, our friendship, allowing it to slip further...Now its being strained to its limit alredi...I'll never return to being that close fren that would ask if you were ok, ask if you were down or console you when you need it most...The space for you in my heart is slowly shrinking, to allow more space for Selene to come in...If you want to leave it alone, den soon, I'll probably be that outsider you described...I never wanted this to happen...Things only change when you want to, remember?Is this what you want?I hope you're happy with such results..Very soon you'll be gone, gone my heart...Unless you wanna try to save our friendship, sad to say, I doubt it will last thru this dec...I'll nt give myself another chance to get close to you any more...My heart keeps torturing itself...My mind has come in to stop it...After todae is the dae...The dae that I'll leave for another girl...Never turning back...I dun think you'll have a big reaction to wad I've wrote...Well, i juz hope you're happy...
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+5:27 AM]*
Den Tangie called and asked me out to lunch at bedok after she came back from skool...Went to meet her around 12.20...Din really eat...Rained heavily, so i had to go home first...Was feeling damn tired neways...
Played gunbound when i reached home...Finally went to Cassey's house around 3(?)...Den Zach came to her house as well...Din do much...Stayed til 8.20,den Cassey sorta chased us away...HaiZ...HeR mom was pissed..So she thot we'd better leave...
Reaching my house, tried to play the sega saturn games zach brought to lend me...Unfortunately, my set had spoilt..LoLs...Wasted...
I think i sed sumthin to get Cassey pissed...Again..Sorri...=X...Gt really pissed at myself for doin dat, cos Cassey totally ignored me...Tried to take a nap about 9.15...Put legs up onto bed post cos dey were dirty...=X, Neways, my whole body was numb when i got up...Couldn't move at all...LoLs...Kinda looked like i had a stroke...=P Luckily no one was in my room...
Problem solved again...Lucky me...PLayed gunbound summore...Lil sis got hooked alredi...She's denying it tho...Neways, when her fren let her practice on his character, me and Zach stepped in and trashed his character 3 times...Twice by me =D...Double silver axe lost to metal axe...Bwahaha
MIndy and LiXin came bak around 4...Ah Fat bought food for us..Sum mee pok thingy...too drowsy to notice wad it was b4 it entered my mouth...HeHs...Neways thnx...Ate about 2 pax...LoLs...Zach fell asleep and couldn't get up to eat his...Gotta cut down on gassy drinks and sweet stuff...Dun wanna get diabetes...But i drank another can of pepsi before coming upstairs...Dat will be my last can for the week...>=|
Gonna do up my bLog design soon...Might move to .diaryland.com... Cause easier to find nice templates...
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+11:45 PM]*
Ate before coming home at KFC...Sister's fren was at our house...Uncle brought durians over...Ate alot...Dun care even if it was too "heaty"...Had 3 or maeb four durians...
Suffering from gunbound withdrawal...Play gunbound whenever I'm down...Playing more and more dese few daes...Sister's laptop couldn't open gunbound...Had to re-install...No mood for that shit...Mom's laptop hung on me...Also, she had work to do and conveniently she left the charger in the office...Felt too shitty to go on...Came back to my room...
Damn tired...Damn frustrated...You came to me...Accused me of ignoring you when i was afk...TAking me as some outsider now...Thinking that I'm some superman, dat i will go to you each time you log on to say hi and to start a conversation...I can't always be at the com...For you I've done so much..Its not enuff...I guessed so...So wad even if I'm some superman as my brutha had seD?I'll still break...Scolded at training, came home feeling so tired and useless...Not been sleeping well, haven slept before 12 for months, haven slept before 3 for weeks...Now I've been fed this crap...Feel like crying, forcing myself to hold back the tears...Yet I'm going crazy waiting for you to come online, for me to tell you what i have to say, most importantly that I'm sorry...Know that its not my fault...But I dun mind...I'll make any sacrifice to save our friendship...Gonna break down and start crying, not gonna be able to sleep at all, if you dun forgive me, or at least come online...
you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit
brutal.
which happy bunny are you?
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I know i sucked...This quiz juz confirmed it...
Depressing day for me...
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+3:49 AM]*
Saw her online...Din wanna bother her...As frens, i din think it was nice to keep talking to her like sum despo guy wanting to froce his way into her heart...
After dinner, she asked y i was avoiding her or sumthin..Guess u feel the loneliness setting in?Neways, went to parkway with sis n her bf...They wanted to engrave a lighter...Ate at Burger King...
After i reached home n she came online, i told her abt y i din talk to her...Chatted with her and Gerri...Went to play gunbound some more...Gunbound does an amazing job making me numb from feelings...Metal axe alredi...Realli disappointed that i can't get double metal axe tonite...
Training tomorrow...SiaNz...But have to go...But here i am...Its 4 in the morning...Not asleep yet...Fact that i yearn for love, and to give my love to sum1 is keeping me up...LoLs...I'll find sum1 soon...Determined to...Neways, Better go try n sleep...
Your serial killer name would be Diablo! You would
be a mastermind in what you do. You would come
up with perfect plans on how to do your bad
stuff, and send out your minions to do it for
you. That would prevent you from getting
caught, because for one reason, they would not
rat you out. Your real name might not be known
and you would be greatly wanted, because as
long as you're out on the hidden streets, there
will still be danger! You're the big guy/girl!
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+5:14 AM]*
Its over..no more soap opera...Decided to b frens...LoLx..After so long...
Couldn't get to metal axe for gunbound yet...Dun think i got it neways...confirmed dble stone axe...
Thnx arh Zach..play so long with mi...
Ehs Alexcia...Relax...Zach din mean it one la...
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+2:19 AM]*
Met Zach along Paya Lebar...Stomach hurt a little...Guess you were right...Too much spicy food...Neways, Zach had a stomachache too...Reached skool to do nothing...juz walked around..din noe where results were...Luckily Kok Bin, at ping pong training told us...LoLx...Went to skool for like onli 15mins...Ter wanted to meet us...But he too slow liao...So we decided to go his house...
Reached his house, Watched Zach play gb...I played 1 game...Ate mee sotoh(My Fav)Saw that 76ers won Spurrs... 100 : 96...
Took taxi to Heartland Mall, pestered by those volunteers to collect donations, so irritating.They all fastened their pace, hoping to lose sight of them, but they forgot about mi...I got surrounded, and thot, "ahh wad the heck" so i bought one of those money eating tickets...When we reached, I heard them sayin tornament at 2.30pm down there while it was already 2.10pm. Decided no point bowling, then I suggested going go East Coast to bowl, but things weren't as we expected.
Another hour half of travelling...Reach there, found out the rate was $3/- a game. Well, since we were so desperate to bowl, didn't really care about the cost at that time. That was when we made one grave mistake. Rent the bowling shoes, boy it freakin STINKS, probably didnt wash for months.I almost puke on the spot.Secondly, the balls were all in a bad conditions, cracked, chipped, holes were not properly drilled.Thirdly, the screen was spoilt, could not see our scores, Next, the lanes were not waxed, able to see footprints all over then the ball cannot glide nicely.And lastly, the machine that is used to clear the pins and pull up the pins, it broke. It fell off, it was damn hilarious. Wanted to take picture and post, but somehow could not take it. East Coast SuperBowl, DUN EVER GO THERE. i've never seen a bowling alley in such state before. And guess what, a alley with like 20 over lanes has only one receptionist and one technician. What a letdown.
All of us only played 3 frames and just told the lady, paid and got off.That would be the first and last time for me there.After that, we walked to another nearby alley, we found out Singapore Bowling Team's hideout. Lols, they were bowling there, was so envious of their bowling skills...If only i was like them... Watch le watch le, we walked past Marine Parade then go main road take bus.We 3 go back bedok, Zach walk go home.
Reached home, showered, and was out of the house again all in 30 mins...Went to chinatown to eat...Couldn't eat much...Durno why...But i feel dat my appetite is growing smaller...Dats BAD...
Picked up maid from grandmother's house...Feeling damn sleepy...Yet I'm not even asleep now..Its 2am...
Reached home to play gb n chat summore...Hehehe...
Sum stuff i wanna sae :
Dae by dae, I feel the distance between us being forced apart, by what i do not know...Been talking less...Whenever i start the conversation, it usually ends awkwardly after 4-5 lines...Although all seems fine, I know its not the same anymore...Perhaps, we've come to such a stage that we dun have much to talk about..*ShRuGs* Maybe i should try harder, play less games, be more focused while talking to u...You mention of other guys...I dun get angry or hardly jealous...I'm fine with you liking other guys...I dun own you...Would you b happier if I started liking another girl?What if one dae, I started going out with another girl?Another girl who cares more for me...Another girl...Sets you thinking right...Where is such a girl...There r such girls...I juz hold myself bak...For u...Now, I've decided to try a new enviroment...So if one dae I'm not there to love you anymore, you'll know that not taking this msg to mind was the wrong move...But dun worry, I'll still always have a space for you in my heart...Things only change when you want to...I dun wanna give you up..But if i have to do something, I'll do it...
Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose: The
Alone.
"When I wake up alone, the shades are still
drawn on the cold window pane so they cast
their lines on my bed and lines on my
face."
The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness,
melancholy, and patience. It is governed by
the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword,
or Unrequited Love.
As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a
hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so
much love to give, but thing just never seem to
work out the way you want them to. In life,
you can be very optomistic, even when things
are gray and nothing works out to your
expectations.
What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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