(Wednesday, December 12, 2007-)
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gah. its been very irritating today!
i've tons of masters missing! the ones from london, swissotel fireworks and more! shit. and the worst thing is, they're not cant-find-missing. they're deleted-destroyed-gone-missing. what the fuck. gah.
i almost stabbed myself for not taking proper care and letting them go missing. shit. damned computer was so cramped up i had to move my files around and stuff got deleted or formatted over. fucking ridiculous how i let that happen now that i think about it.
oh man. priceless images and memories wiped! i'd give up my photos shot in viet for my london ones if i can get them back! fucking irritated.
some were even gone a long time ago. i was trying to compile my images to be sent in a batch as stock images and BAM! it hit me that i have that much gone. =/
only expletives run through my mind since it dawned on me.
and the past two days, i keep getting bugged by the fact that my standards have actually dropped a shitload. no doubt i've stepped up my post processing, but all the shooting en site has been crap. i've not took proper care of my camera body and lens, they're long overdue for cleaning.
shit.
my photo composition's been really bad. subjects were really vague, ended up with tons of pointless photos. colour and lighting's pretty much rubbish as well.
god damned. i need to take some courses or some shit and do something about this.
fuck. i hope this is the rock bottom of the "feeling-like-garbage-photographer" we all go through that jacob and i were discussing about.
because being far, far below the industry standard's no fun at all.
-kwan.
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