(Saturday, March 04, 2006-)
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ah damn.. got up late today.. supposed to meet junde and jeremy today at kallang at 9, but i only woke up at 9.. gah.. should've gotten someone to wake me.. stupid chang never wake up also.. anw i got a cab, then picked up the two of them and finally reached the place at 1030.. >.<
was supposed to meet pamela, xuan and chang after i was done, but they wanted to stay in the north side. bleh. so far... after coming out from the shower, i stared at the bed and i thought ahh. why not.. i took a nap. hah! been a long time since i last took a nap and hell, it felt good. but i suddenly woke up after 2 hours.. don't know why either.. maybe its just my body saying "no! thats enough! don't stop! keep on going!" since i'm not meeting them, i'll probably be going to the airport to send mum, mindy,tangie and botak off to australia...
i want out of this. now! everything's spinning now, i cant seem to be able to set things straight. if you'll let me hold you, i'll promise to never let go. never.
pffft.
i want to go out.
cus its when im alone in the night when it hurts the most.
zzzZ.. i want to leave. things are moving too slowly for me here..
maybe its just me..so sick of love songs. how true. dont the radio play anything else these days?
-kwan.
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(Wednesday, March 01, 2006-)
+11:36 PM]*
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damn tired these days, have been sleeping late. ahh.. x.x
anyways, im waist deep in homework..hope i can finish them by this weekend..
went to the parliament house today.. equally as cool as the supreme court.. and it was better, since we were there when the parliament was in session.. also they had better chairs. heh.
after that went to grab a bite with shane and brandon before going to peninsula to walk abit.. picked up a felt polo tee, brandon got one thats towel material.. =D $18. as brandon said, damn shiok, gd buy!
life's alright now i guess, just need to sort out all my homework and get more sleep. *yawns.
holidays coming soon. yay! lol. will probably be bored to death... luckily i've planned a bbq on the 14th, attending xbox360 launch on 15th and will be going to zouk with brandon,javier,xuan and all on 16th..
when your science teacher smashed a frozen rose with a hammer, were you able to bring the rose back to life by warming it?
why does every single object i see, every single place i go to, every single thought i think of and every single thing i hear remind me of you?
-kwan.
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(Sunday, February 26, 2006-)
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zzZ..
have been really tired these days. gah.. yesterday met javier and jacob to go to sentosa and take photos at 7.30 >.< it was fun.but half the time we were sitting at places stoning.. and i was pretty much in a daze..went to the butterfly place first, then walked here and there looking for nice things to capture..got really tired into the afternoon, so we split up arnd 4-5, jacob went home, javier came to my place..supposed to meet up for a movie at 9 after that, so javier was playing burnout, and i was sleeping until like 8? then jacob said he couldnt make it and we made it there just before 9, but kevin and singchang...9 reach century when we were at tampines mall.. damn. end up watching them play arcade.. stone abit.. then went to billy bomber's cus chang wanted to spend. so .. i had a salad and a cappuccino.. kevin had the chunky fries.. and chang, he just had a cappuccino also.. -.- went down to marine parade to play arcade.. didn't play at all also.. just stood there watching them..by the time we came out, was scared we'd miss the last bus.. kevin was like 'oh shit thats my bus!' then he ran off..chang walked home, me and javier was lucky that there was still a 32 at 12.15.. then he came to my place, and his mum picked him up..
today, wanted to go to the aerospace show.. but, was really tired and it'll be very crowded.. later sure irritated.. also, have yet to complete a single piece of mr lim's work..
the day you left me, i was stained with sorrow and sadness.my eyes were red with grief.you were a part of me, and when you left, i felt like i lost one of my lungs and it became so much harder to breathe.i had no clue as to how i would survive the next minute of my life unable to show my care for you openly, hear your sweet voice every night, holding your warm hands, smelling your soft hair and feeling the soft touch of your lips.
i felt that i had done everything possible, but i loathed myself for letting it happen.what happened next almost killed me, i wanted to hate you for being who you were, but i couldn't bring myself to it, because i loved you for who you were.i tried to use every negative point of you to sterilize myself from your love, to be at peace.yet, i still wait for you, every minute that i live, every hour of the day, every day of the month and every month of the year.
you don't have to love me, you probably can't, not now, i just want to be there for you, to make sure that there are no unhappy days in your calender and to shelter you from the rain and sun under my wing.
-kwan.
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