(Monday, February 06, 2006-)
+10:13 PM]*
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hmm..
spent the first period with the nurse for my health check up since i was absent on friday.. hah! saved me from standing outside class for a period since i've not done mr lim's work..it was pretty much the same as usual.. got my eyes checked out then the health review.. 06/06 on both sides =) hah. ! as usual. xD
but sadly there were two periods of maths, so i still had to stand outside for 1 period..
lab was fun today..recorded like 20mins of the lesson since i was at the back and tzewei was going on with his usual rantings..
gah..the rest of the day was pretty boring..i fell backwards on my chair during history.. stupid wall.. suddenly moved away. haha.. _|_fuck u, u stupid wall.. =x
err.. yea, skipped everything else after assembly...too tired..
i still feel the school would be a much better place if some rules would be more flexible..
once i was home, spent most of the time on this photography forum, picking up tips. haha..
then cass decided to pick out my birthday gift a few days in advance..
a bag! just what i needed. haha =) from rusty. now my pencil box and bag both from rusty..
cass, christle, gerri and their friend alvin popped by to look at king and to pass me the bag . =D
a momentary hug and a short walk holding your hand, all it took to make my day. xD
-kwan.
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+1:32 AM]*
# its just me and all my anger-
ah damn.
just got back from my ahma's place..first time in many years have i took part in this hokkien practice, '拜天宫' yea.. 'paitigong' if you cant see the chinese characters.. anyways, not a religious person, but i enjoy partaking in such events as it invloves most of the family..
on the way back, i was thinking back of the times when i was younger and stayed at my grandparent's place, only to return to the jurong flat in the weekends.. ahh..at that point of time it didn't seem exciting in any way to me..but every now and then, i'd wish to be able to spend a few days at their place again...for one, it would feel like a break from all the technology and distractios.also i'll probably get the sleep i need..hah.shall grab my cousin and go over to their place one weekend..
dad was grumbling about tangie going out for supper with botak...why would it seem like such a big deal? even if she's working at 9 in the morning? i mean she's 24 la.. for heaven's sake.. she's definitely able to think for herself.. and even if she couldn't, it would be a lesson for her, and she would learn from it, no?sometimes i really wonder..why, why are we so different in thinking even though i'm their kid, i don't like the things they do and vice versa..our ideologies are vastly different as well..perhaps the only traits i share with my parents is their selfishness, unreasonability and ignorance.. and they wonder why i cant connect with them.. even if you put my dad with his brothers, all of my uncles have a similiar view on life as i do..but not him.he has to be the odd one out..the things people say behind his back..the things people say behing MY back..we'll never hear them, but i know people say it...i know he's trying, and i'm trying..just hope it'll change for the better one day..
not really an intended hate entry, just a brief comment..
-kwan.
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(Sunday, February 05, 2006-)
+4:01 AM]*
# lost.-
a long time..
3 months. hah.. really long i guess. many things can happen, and they did.
milestones?
19th september, cass and i got together =)
haha..
22nd february, i got hold of my first and only DSLR, nikon D70s
was hell excited..especially after following jacob around to take photos with his nikon fm2.. but, ever since then, i got really occupied.. and i've noticed i was as well..
i know i've been neglecting you, but you're constantly on my mind.. are you bored? have you eaten? are you thinking of me? yet it seems so hard to send out that short little sms.maybe its because i'd feel silly sending you an sms saying 'hey.. are you bored?' or maybe 'have you eaten?' maybe its because you're still in school when i get home, and i'm out when you are home..but im trying..i really am. hell, im tired of going out every night.. but something keeps dragging me out..maybe its my wanting to belong with people.. i dont know.. but im not one who would sit down and do my work when i've nothing else to do.
*sigh*
am i allowed loneliness?
anyways,
just got back from nickt's place.. 4am. extremely tired.. but decided to put this in since my blogs been untouched for so long..
heads hurting a hell lot..
i love you with all my heart. can you see it?
im really trying.. can you feel it?
popped 2 panadols.. going to bed soon.. hope i won't get dragged up early tomorrow.. or rather, later on..
-kwan.
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