(Thursday, July 06, 2006-)
+11:21 PM]*
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Fuck. I need to go to bed. I've been sleeping at 4-5am and waking up at 6am everyday ever since the school term started. I'd just sit here, staring into the computer, fingers finding their way to keys. I just can't seem to fall asleep, lying on the bed. Or at least that's what I've been telling myself. Maybe there's just something telling me not to go to bed.
I came up with a thesis a few nights ago, staring into the ceiling. I've been feeling awfully alone, and I'm shying away from the solitude of my bed, staying online where there'd be people 'around' me all the time. I've stopped wanting to go to bed because the feeling of being alone just escalates. Keeping myself awake appears to be the only thing I'm interested in doing night after night.
I've been sick for awhile, my head hurts like fuck, my eyes are barely open and my back aches. I don't give 2 fucks to whatever has been happening in school or just around me. I've been dozing off whenever i have the chance to. I missed my stop the other day and had to go the extra distance. Mr Lim spent one period teaching me the same question 3 times today, because I simply couldn't stay awake as he explained and even if I had heard what he said, I was dozing off by the time its my turn to put the pen to paper. I need to buck up in school. Grant me strength. Someone. Preferably not God and/or other almighty beings. Thanks.
After a long time, I finally played some DOTA today. Didn't use any of my confident heros, played death prophet, which was my second time using her and sniper. I'm comfortable with sniper, but I wasn't quite in the mood to play already.
Gerard followed me home, changed and we went to Parkway with Tangie and Botak. Wanted to pick up a cd, but wasn't too sure, so I didn't. Bought another ear stud. I have only one side of this one cus I sold one side to Shawn some time back. -_-" And i bought an earring. Only one side cus the other side was sold. Desmond from Stege said he'll get another in for me, so I'll probably pop by some other time to get the other side.
Home, I hope I'll sleep by 2am.
-kwan.
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